The Consciousness Has Shifted...The Awakening Has Begun
I sense that all your connection with the forces of light makes your "energy/conciousness " rise beyond the limits of your current "base template".
Your Love/Light and "unneeded emotions" and your "Prana/Chi is transferred and sucked/stored into a "off-grid" transdimensional "black hole" . Creating the "zero-point power core" for your future Trans-stellar Light "body".
This is all part of the current harvest/returning of "souls" and future seeding of the transdimensional star human.
Try to ask your future self inside the "black hole" to reverse the flow of "information" and Transform your draining "darkness" into personally enriching information and marvel at your future wisdom.
Love and Blessings
Wow! This is quite the interesting and unexpected scenario I have found myself in.
When I first became established with this energy sphere of mine, I was in a state of panic and fear, where ultimately because of a simple lack of knowledge/experience, I was not ready to accept, whilst also understanding and realizing the power of my consciousness and how it shapes my own reality and experiences, I found myself in a perceived 'trapped panic' where I was also very aware and very afraid that I was just as well likely and possibly attracting this experience by giving so much conscious thought and energy to. So when this energy sphere suddenly decided to activate itself and make me aware of it, it as you say, quite literally hit me with all of it at once, leaving me with an experience that left my physical body on near collapse/passing out, and very ungrounded, unless I consciously redirected the activity with my mind. So clearly when this happened, while in the midst of this very disturbed state of mind, I perceived it as a 'foreign energy' sucking all of my lifeforce out of my physical being as a result of what I'd just then manifested with my own consciousness, unfortunately.
Such an experience was quite literally the perceived reality of a ' worst nightmare' for me. A state of constant mental guard and overall suffering of being, whilst also having the feeling of your physical life and vitality vacuumed out of you from an unrelenting 'unknown force', the only break determined by your mental fortitude, which often just thinking or 'tricking' myself into thinking about that 'vacuuming feeling' would trigger it right away. So usually this 'break' only lasted between 10-20 seconds, explaining why I could never fall asleep.
However, this situation clearly was a huge learning experience for myself.. not even sure I'll be able to relay my whole feeling of experience just yet. Having to test myself into reclaiming all of my spiritual power in that timeframe, to overcome something that was actually my creation in the first place.. whilst also realizing being in that higher state of unshakable love for all lifeforms/entities regardless of their possible 'ill-wishing' for you, and the total acceptance of all situations you may find yourself in, understanding that you are eternal and nothing can truly 'harm' you in any way and finally realizing and embodying the understanding that this world/universe we perceive is only a game, and all we're doing here is remembering / learning how to navigate this game, until we find that we no longer struggle or resist anything. These are all of the mental concepts, relayed here, that were presented to me by others on my journey or things I had to realize myself. I remember sometimes just being so angry that I would let something, allow something, to make me feel this way and I immediately ceased the feeling of my life force being drained away, every time it reactivated itself. Other times I found myself so tired that when the feeling came, I would say again, ''I do not allow this to happen to me" or, "I do not let you do this to me" and there was no change at all, because I was experiencing a feeling of total loss in my own spiritual power, which at one time being able to fully realize.
Clearly I was not ready for this, (I had no idea such an energy sphere existed at all), and I need to rewire my mind to be much more harmonious with itself... Still not even entirely sure what this energy sphere is and how it works, but from what you'd told be about 'sipping' the energy, I have been able to just think of taking this in and experience feelings of this sparkling, pure, golden energy bursting into any chakra or part of my body that I want. I still feel that constant humming/buzzing at my tailbone, so I am not entirely sure if I've closed off the connection completely, or even if I should.
And of course, I truly want to thank you Nix, and Rolf, for looking into this for me! If not, well... I might've gone insane. You have my eternal gratitude*** :)
Love and Blessings