Dear Blog (or whoever may read)

I am talking or rather writing to you because currently i dont have any friends no more and i was isolated in silence so long that I can hardly communicate orally. I am not saying i am an outcast. Instead, i am smoky handsome and modern guy, but that just... doesnt help me to have friends anyway. Those who were my friends I had eliminated from my life. Every man has right to choice his social circle, preferences and ideology. I made mine, but perhaps there is not my time right now to make new.

I am asking myself, whom I want to be? Which path should I choose? One of them is EGO self-centered man (whom I always was) trying to answer and prove any right. Now I see - thats not all that simple. immediate judgement, self-evaluated revenge - dont solve any problem, but only worsen it making a vicious circle. I want to choose path of goodness, but as i never understood the Bible and Christ's self-donating actions, its hard to realise it and apply practically.
Thats all for now.