Comment by jay on July 25, 2012 at 11:48pm

We all go through our moments in this state of being. so always remember you arent the only one. I am happy that you realized what you needed too. alot of people continue on with kicking themselves. i would say 9 out of 10 asked to come here. alot of people arent aware of that and its most likely they have forgotten. schizophrenia is over looked because we have these people called doctors who really only go so far to learn as to what they are being taught by a system. welcome to the machine. mental illnesses can be fixed , helped, cured by our diets but people listen to dr's so much that they base theyre beliefs on these people which to an extent is invalid. they give drugs that hold toxins like flouride and other toxic ingredients and it only make a person worse. so then the person becomes needy and cant cope and they relapse and back to the medicine and mental facilities they go and thats how these drug companies make theyre money. there is valid knowledge and information that the people of the top know.they will not share this info because it will stop theyre process of running things.where do we get our medicine from originally?? plants!! where do we get ingredients for our drugs?? the toxic stuff is things we dont need but there isnt a test to see if a person is a certain why they go by a book and diagnose you.theres so much inot this matter to get into i will just point one thing out search around do your research theres more outlooks of what i have then what i am about to show you but here it is>>>> Schizophrenia>>>>  http://www.holisticeducator.com/spiritualemergence.htm

Comment by Singing Aesephena on July 26, 2012 at 8:29am

Thanks for the comment and info Jay. :) I feed my body a lot of toxins, I really should quit...especially caffeine, as it sometimes gives me negative side effects like compulsive shaking and rapid heart beat. I have tried on and off over the years to quit drinking caffeinated soda, but damn if it isn't my strongest addiction. Well, I guess my anti-psychotic could be my strongest addiction as I go through withdrawal symptoms if I don't take it at a certain time. At least I don't do anything else...no drugs, no alcohol...I already went through lives as a drug addict and alcoholic. Lesson learned.

Bright Blessings,

Aese

Comment by Charlie Fari Bassols on October 12, 2012 at 10:45am

Wow you dont look psychotic at all by the way you write maybe the others are the ones crazy lol havent you thinked about it? . You look so aware and counciouss . As doreens says if you get nervous focus on service thats why we are here i think . In the end many people who overcame traumas are giving speechs and lectures they become teachersxD beautiful writing you have so aware thanks for sharing

Comment by Singing Aesephena on October 12, 2012 at 12:07pm

Thank you Charlie. :) I really do appreciate that. My awareness has baffled my psychiatrist. He never really diagnosed me, my counselor did. And she told me he didn't because no labels really fit what I am. The closest they could get was schizoaffective disorder. But trust me...there are times when I definitely feel crazy. I'm just a good girl who takes her medicine and is therefore able to function in the world. I'm blessed in that way. I know other Schizophrenics who have a lot harder time with their illness than I do, and they are on their meds too. I have learned so much from my interactions with other schizophrenics. We all help each other no matter what the problem is. I never met so many beautiful souls as in my support group. Watching them struggle then rise above their illness. It is truly amazing.

Bright Blessings,

Aese

Comment by Dave on October 12, 2012 at 6:22pm

wow! you definately have a grip on things. My nephew has full blown schizo and he refused to even take his meds. Its a shame how this disease is treated on this world. I have little doubt that relief is on the way. Hang in there and take one day at a time.

Comment by Charlie Fari Bassols on October 12, 2012 at 6:35pm

my psychiatrist told me when i was younger that my parents wouldnt love with if a was gay because of that i got scared when i was 14 and left my country dont trust psychiatrist ok? she was the director of a hospital i believe they are more crazy than us in fact they are the ones crazy i have no more to say , she is dead now but i have forgiven her and i thank her because now i am more mature and a grown up person :) and you know what my parents love me alot! keep your kids away from psychiatrist lol

Comment by Singing Aesephena on October 13, 2012 at 1:09am

I didn't always have such a firm grip on things. Sometimes I forget I'm schizophrenic and then something will happen that reminds me. But I don't let it derail me. It's the kind of illness that you do need to take one day at a time. It lets me practice being in the "now". And I think more people need to slow down and experience the beauty of each day. But I'm not always this lucid. Some nights get really bad, especially if I forget to take my meds. I don't normally forget but it does happen from time to time and I go straight into withdrawal. These are some heavy meds, but hey, I need them right now. Maybe someday I won't.

That's an awful thing for a psychiatrist to say Charlie. I'm glad you worked beyond it. My counselor reacted very strongly when I came out to her, but now discussing it doesn't phase her a bit. Both of my parents now...and my siblings. I do my best to normalize the situations as they come.

And now I'm going to go and pass out because I've had an exhausting day. :)

Bright Blessings,

Aese

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