Reuniting Humanity With Their Divinity...It's Time
Hey everyone im Natalie Priest and im still relatively new to this website, i thought i would write abit about myself and how i came to realise i might be a Starseed as well as my evolving Spiritual development.
Throughout my life i hadn't really ever heared of Spiritual or new age concepts, in my childhood i had no role models who knew of this subject, my parents were ordinary, working class family no unusual or Spiritual interests, they were just casual Church of England Christians. I grew up with basic Christian beliefs such a believing in an old bearded man like God and Jesus from learning this at school without really having any choice in the matter. I displayed no psychic gifts other than being able to know what song would come on the radio next, but like typical Starseed children i was different from other children and felt different. Was a problem child with behavioural and emotional problems and abit hyperactive and not good at relating to people. My parents took me to see lots of specialists but got no answers or labels just that i had behavioural problems and would grow out of it, but i didnt seem to not until i was past my 20s. I first heared of Autism when i was 14 and my parents also, my mum saw a documentary about Autism and said it described me as a child and now. When i was 17 my Grandparents found an article about Aspergers Syndrome in the paper and they thought it described me very well, gave it to me and my parents to look at.
At school i was bullied and seen as a weirdo, but i never knew what i did wrong to not fit in, though i was my own person and not a follower like some of the kids were.
In my teens i decided i was an Athiest, i believed in the power of Science, and thought that everything was what you saw and was the reality, didnt look beyond this, i stopped believing in God. I thought once you died that was it, you were gone to nothing. Got diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome traits in 2000 when i was 17. The first spiritual event happened to me when i was 17 and i got really into and obsesed with Astrology, it became my obsession, i analysed my birthchart and Astrology itself, and it took over my life. Realising i was a scorpio moon and not just a Leo Sun changed my life and i understood my emotional intensity and where it came from. I had no role models on Spiritual or metaphysical concepts so had no real understanding of them, i was not exposed to them.
A psychotherapist told me about Astral travel when i was in my late teens and i thought it sounded fascinating but i didnt take it further until years later, when i turned 23 i started to only change than Spiritually. After a trip to Madagascar for a Month as a volunteer my whole world was shock upside down, i changed Spiritually and evolved gradually. I met some one out there who i had a real connection with and was convinced she was my Soul mate, before i even really knew more than superfically what the term meant. I looked into her soul and liked what i saw.
After getting back to England, i became obsessed with Astral travel, reading about it online for hours and wanting to learn it so i could Astral travel back to Madagascar and see her again. Than i saw at age 23 a documentary about a group of children called Starchildren or Starseeds, Indigos and Crystals. I felt strongly that i was one myself, so i researched it further on the internet and felt alot of the Indigo Characteristics were like me, though i felt i was not very Psychic yet and need to develop this area.
I ended up having a Psychotic episode for the first time, 3 months after getting back from Madagascar. Though i still believe some of it to be real. I thought i was telapathically communicating with people i met in Madagascar, the women who i felt a connection with and two other staff members, they were telling me information about myself and said we were all missing links in Evoluntion of Humans. I could hear their voices in my head, and was being loved my P ( i will just call her P to keep her name Private). And getting her attention which i had wanted since coming back to England. I was soon put on Olanzapine, but the voices didnt seem to go away for a long time, i was told P had split her soul in two and half was in my body and the other in hers to help me as i wanted to die. Abit intense stuff!
After the voices went away, P kept saying sorry to me before she left, in 2007 i longed for the voices to coem back again especially P, and in May 2007 they came back again. Had the same telapathy. New information was told to me first saying me and P were twins or half and half, i didnt know what they meant, so the voices explained that me and P were twin souls, this was the first time i had heared of the term ever, so i felt skeptical that it might just be Psychosis, so i researched it on the internet and found it to be a real Spiritual Phenomenan, i felt excited that i explained the relationship between me and P very well. The intense and instant connection i had had with her in Madagascar when first meeting. Once again i believed in God and some kind of universal intelligence and became very interested in Spiritual and New age concepts. The voices also explained that me and P were unusual because we were Baby soul Twin flames, and usually Twins don't meet until their Soul development is alot older, explains why one Twin P is afraid of the other and cant be with her in the phyiscal so comes as a voices and sensation. I still don't know what to make of this as its normally older souls that are aware of and into Spiritual development, but i guess i was ignorant for a long time and selfish and simple.
I have had the voices in my head on and off since this time and medication doesnt seem to get rid of them completely, though i am still confused about how real the situation is, what parts of it are real and what are just Psychosis. It seems the voices espeically P have helped evolve my personal development, i am far less selfish and aggressive now, and understand how to relate to people because of the interactions with the voices. The drugs do however dull the experience down for me, but dont eradicated the voices completely.
Thank you, for taking the time to read my article and make sense of it as you can, its quite a long story and complicated in parts.