H.....E....L....P.....where are you..... where am I...???

soo.. life is monotonously passing by smtimes i feel like i can barely move barely feel... like a statue i just freeze its like a leave myself... dont know what im doing anymore doesnt make sense... pressures/forces and energies here in the usa feel like they are trying to make me lose my way lose myself... i feel like they just might when and swallow me up in a sea of meaningless monotonous robotic exisitence... I want to save myself.... but the longer i stay the more i feel helpless the more i feel waves of energy crash overme of negativity of sorrow... i feel so anxious on the inside and frozen on the out... so many emotions built up on the inside but my self keeps me from dealing with them its like i want to confront them but my own self wont let me its like i shut down and my brain refuses to think about it involuntarily.... poison on the tv poison on the radio and magizenes poison from the enerrgies and thought patterns of fear and hate, jealousy of the rat race of the fast track of the american society... I want to burst into tears it feels like too much to bear smtimes... although i know i have the answers to my own problems inside me its like this places pits me against myself.... I am so lost so confused right now... i feel like i just want to fade into the black... and inside im screaming!!!!!!!  I need advice on how to overcome this!

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Comment by Tiffany michelle chavira mabe on March 18, 2011 at 7:01pm
thank you so much for your advice i find  travelling distraction to be a temporary relief as well.... just this feels so much stronger than other times but this advice can definitly help to some extent thanks soo much for your post :)
Comment by Angelica Serena on March 18, 2011 at 11:59pm
This is exactly what I have been feeling! I have seen spaceships in a line formation twice this week and I feel like they mean something but I have no idea what. This has happened twice in less than a week that I see them. I feel like something huge is about to happen...To all of us! I felt it strongly today. It was probably because of all the things that have been happening in the last week and I was not expecting to go to the hospital today, either. I have no idea why any of these things are happening but it scares and exites me at the same time because it bruings me closer to the truth. I am very confused.
Comment by Amandananda on March 19, 2011 at 12:11am
I have been feeling like there is a whirlwind around me and everything is moving so fast. I had an enlightening discussion with a mentor and he suggested altering patterns that I am getting stuck in. Just being aware of this has made a tremendous difference. Two days ago, I found myself skipping...all day. It was the lightest and happiest I've felt in...I don't know how long. I've been researching dr carl calleman's "time acceleration matrix" and it has helped me immensly in wrapping my head around what's been going on in the world...geological, social and political upheavals everywhere. I believe that life is trying to realign itself and anything that is stuck in the old paradigms and patterns are going to have a hell of a time realigning. So maybe the feeling frozen thing is about realizing that you can't exist in the pattern you are in and that surrounds you. Just change your mind...get crystal clear about what it is that you want. You clearly know what you don't want. I've been noticing when people get clear about their desires and intentions, life rushes in to fill the order. It's a union of the thought and your feeling about it and when we marry the two, CREATION happens. So make it good. Because life has been speeding up and manifestation has been speeding up...so make it GOOD. Make it intentional. This pattern isn't working...what do WE want to replace it with?

What a ramble :)
Comment by RActurus on March 19, 2011 at 12:12am

I agree with TheSirian. Doing something you enjoy is the best way to get your mind off of things Then, who knows, you might find out that's you were supposed to do in the first place lol We're not here to suffer even if we're here to serve. This service is still something you enjoy :-)

Having said that I was going nuts today too lol Lately I've been going outside and taking my shoes off to stand on the grass and that helps me ground myself.

Selamat Gajun! Selamat Ja! (Sirian for Be One! and Be in Joy!)

Comment by Puppy on March 19, 2011 at 12:13am

Dear ...

You are strong to even admit that something's up. Im from europe and i've been visiting america for a year and something about me was slowly dying so obviously there is something goin on there. Now that I'm back home Im picking myself back up and finding ways that would work in america too I'm sure but I was too blind there and too weak to see them. SO the base of any way is HEART HEART HEART... keep focusing on your heart no matter what, find your inner child there and find anything you might be looking for there. You will always be grounded if you search within your heart, and you can go anywhere within your heart, whole eternity is in your heart, the source is in your heart. I have only just started this so I cant really say more but my life sure is changing ... So this focus of the heart is just to be in that area with your attention and just sink into it and see how its unlimited and it's safe. I'm sure you will find everything you need in there :)  I love you sister ... Oh about the screaming... you can scream in your heart and let the sound spread out throu whole eternity, im sure it will find a place :))) You are very loved and important :)

Comment by AJ on March 19, 2011 at 12:14am
Reading this made my eyes well up a bit. This reminds me so much of how I felt not long ago. Honestly Tiffany things will get better, i know exactly how you feel. Ive heard time and time again that some of the most highly spiritual people have the toughest time dealing with the emotions and illusional drama that this 3-D matrix pours on top of our heads. but please trust me, things will get better, you are beautiful sister of light, I can see that. what you are feeling is your self coming to the end of a long dark road of all that was, which while doing so will stir up every raw emotion you have and just make you want to give up on everything, but stick it out, have patience, you are turning onto an eternal bliss filled road that will blow your mind away when it arrives. Think of your self as a mother waiting to give birth, you have to experiance these pains and emotions before you can have your beautiful baby. Everything will be just fine Tiffany, just hold in there, your almost there. <3
Comment by Jen on March 19, 2011 at 12:24am
I felt the same way when I was living next to a cell phone tower for two years.. It was awful!
The Ringing Cedar Series books Anastastia got me through it! The books are so up lifting and bring the spark back to co create life And love. I recommend them to everyone especially if you need inspiration to get your mission going! Hang in there drink lots of water this is a powerful full moon weekend! Love.. You are another me
Comment by Saiara on March 19, 2011 at 12:44am

Beloved Sister

I know those feelings. It can feel so hopeless. But hear me when I say, it is not. It is a part of what is flying all around in the very air around you. And a very real possibility that you are taking in some feelings that are not your own and being overwhelmed by the vibration of the collective energy around you. These are some deep moving times we are in, and it can get very intense, especially for someone sensitive. But stop. Drop inside, close your eyes, remove the environment from your visual range and call out to the lighted invisible ones who watch over you, who love you deeply and are very much here for you. Especially now. Cry out. They will hear and they will come and shower you, you will feel this unbearable weight lifting. Little things will happen that let you know they are with you.. and that its okay...breathe deep...you will feel the shift happen inside, your guides will gather close and hold you and help to breathe through the madness and find a sense of ease coming over you. Wait. Watch. See. Breathe, and call out. They WILL help you.

So much love and so much light to you sister. I am here, we all are here for you.

Comment by William Ellison Little Eagle on March 19, 2011 at 1:27am
O'siyo, Times like these are not easy, but one way to over come some of this is to go to Manataka 8000 Drums.We are having a world Gathering,it is not just for the Native peoples but for all those who want peace in yourself and peace with Mother Earth.Gatherings have started now and you also can become one with Mother Earth ,in prayer as we are all as one, and you can find what you are looking for. Take care and pease be with you, the Creator is calling on all of us for world pease.If you need help we are here tpo help, all you have to do is ask and you have done so.Peace and Love.Bill Little Eagle.
Comment by Noha on March 19, 2011 at 2:38am

Get into the wilderness Tiffany! The only way to relight the fire/light that's within, suppressed by control, manipulation, radiation, fear, consumption etc etc, but our lights are there always, waiting...

 

A couple years ago I decided where I lived on the beach in Australia and the associated waterways were too polluted to be habitable.. So rather than fight, I moved.. The best decision EVER! Now I live in the wilderness, off the grind, no mobile reception, rainwater, forests and mountains as far as the eye can see.. Growing our own magical Organic food, healing our mother Earth, connecting to our Star Family watching over us, helping us..Have you read the Anastasia and the Ringing Cedars Books? Email me if you want to know more info about our Anastasia Community we are co-creating in Australia..

 

Love and Bissings to your beautiful NOW!

Noha

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