soo.. life is monotonously passing by smtimes i feel like i can barely move barely feel... like a statue i just freeze its like a leave myself... dont know what im doing anymore doesnt make sense... pressures/forces and energies here in the usa feel like they are trying to make me lose my way lose myself... i feel like they just might when and swallow me up in a sea of meaningless monotonous robotic exisitence... I want to save myself.... but the longer i stay the more i feel helpless the more i feel waves of energy crash overme of negativity of sorrow... i feel so anxious on the inside and frozen on the out... so many emotions built up on the inside but my self keeps me from dealing with them its like i want to confront them but my own self wont let me its like i shut down and my brain refuses to think about it involuntarily.... poison on the tv poison on the radio and magizenes poison from the enerrgies and thought patterns of fear and hate, jealousy of the rat race of the fast track of the american society... I want to burst into tears it feels like too much to bear smtimes... although i know i have the answers to my own problems inside me its like this places pits me against myself.... I am so lost so confused right now... i feel like i just want to fade into the black... and inside im screaming!!!!!!! I need advice on how to overcome this!