Please, Can Anyone Relate?

Helloooo again Lovely Starseed Friends!!

Hurray, we made it to 2012!!!! Congratulations to each of you :)

I normally take a very positive view of my life, and I have no symptomatic reason to complain, but some deep negative feelings have come up on their way to being released, and if anyone can relate it's you. Has anyone else felt this way?

GUILT

did I fail in my mission? I know I came here to be among the populace and influence gently with positive energy - Love, Enthusiasm, Respect, Understanding, etc. but I have found it difficult. this world has not been so friendly towards open-hearted folks, and I have learned to shut down and retreat to my own space most of the time. I feel overwhelmed by guilt that I have failed humanity and been a poor representative.

ANGER

And then I get angry. Angry for the abusive people who pick on happy, vulnerable people. And angry with whoever is targeting us and torturing us with their microwaves. Bullies, grrrrrrr.

LONELINESS

I have never met someone in person who is a Starseed and remembers it. Or remembers any of their other lives. I don't remember much of my contacts with Home and I miss them terribly. At the same time I feel angry with them for what feels like them abandoning me here. I just wish I had some sense of companionship in this. I am not sure I am doing the "right" thing in my life, I'm just doing the best I can.

Anyone feel anything similar?

Or have any advice?

Tags: Homesick, cleansing, emotional, vent

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Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:23pm

Thank you Pat.

Yes, you are so right, deep feelings are enlightening.

Maybe, I am learning not only about my own buried emotions, but also a bit of what mass consciousness is going through - a sense of failure - as the man-made systems fall apart. Perhaps, like the Buddha's suffering, it will give birth to a new, more harmonious philosophy for living which will be the foundation of the new structures.

Pat Sunstone said:

There is a learning experience of what you are feeling! I have found great insight from the life of the Buddha and helped deal with suffering.

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:29pm

Thank you as always, Ain,

This is why I turn to you - my SisStars and BroStars as 'Montana' would say ;) It's just so good no know we are not alone, isn't it? -That we are all truly connected! Thank you for sharing your similar story, and thank you for the kind words, you are a brilliant joyful light, and I feel it with everything you post <3

Ain Light said:

Anf for what its worth,you have certainly not failed in your mission..you touch lives in a positive and uplifting manner,Aliza..every time i see you around on the site,i get a positive vibe,a good feeling..and im surely not the only one who feels that way..

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:40pm

Imma Rose, thank you,

Thank you most of all for helping me know I am not alone. Your love is powerfully tangible, thank you.

And that is very good insight, it probably has a lot to do with how everyone is feeing this time of year. I am so sorry your family isn't unconditionally supportive :(  ((((Hugs)))) You always have us. We are healing one another, and the whole world with it. Coming together seems to be the best way to heal the self.

imma rose heart said:

yes i have lost my family in this world they have become indifferent.. i am taking a step back from them

its becoming like emotional torture to be recieved then not recieved. I am secretly hoping to embrace a new family in my life in the new communuities and so far its not been so easy to link up with others as we

seem to be all over the globe. There is hope i feel its not an easy time for many around this time of year..

you have not failed on your mission and i know you are a strong loving soul with much to give the world and others . wishing you success love and happiness..

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:51pm

Thank you Michael.

I too like being home most of the time. I hope the sense of loneliness decreases when you come on here. We are all from different parts of the galaxy, and some of us disagree at times, but I feel like we come from the same place on the inside. And in the end, all life originates from the One. But moments of truly connecting are rare in this modern world. We live in probably the loneliest culture that ever was, but it is changing, and I believe people like you and me are changing it just by being here. Lots of Love to you <3 

Michael Doherty said:

I particularly relate to the Loneliness. But, i have no knowledge, the real deep cause of it in my case. I choose to stay at home, except when i have to venture out.

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:58pm

Thank you, Max,

Those are very wise words. I do have an enormous ego, hahaha, and what it wants most is to effect the world in a positive way. I suppose it would be good to give my poor ego a break. You have given me a wonderful reminder that our brains are not equipped for the job of the heart, I will meditate on that <3

max said:

you  can find   lectures from    manly  p  . hall   on youtube   ,  about    all kinds of topics   concerning   the essence of man   ,  and lot more   his lecture helped me a  lot  . 

 The most important human endeavor is the striving for morality in our actions. Our inner balance, and even our very existence depends on it. Only morality in our actions can give beauty and dignity to our lives."
-- Albert Einstein --

fallow your heart  , as today society  teaches you  that your brain  is main  organ  but its not   your heart  his more energetic  electromagnetly    than  your brain  wish is receptor  , your heart is   emits  emotions  that u have to fallow  if peace with ego is made  .   

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 2:01pm

Thank you Paul!

I love your enthusiasm :D it is so nice just to know that you have been through this same thing. Thank you for the reminder that our mission is ongoing and it's all in what we do with what is given to us, Bring it On!! Haha. Thanks, you cheered me up :)

Paul Phillip LeCoure said:

That is awesome advice!  Love and Light!  I was going through the same thing for months.  But then I came to the realization that this is a mission and I want to be good at it!  With that boost of confidence, I have come a long way!  Love and Light to you Aliza and to you All!

Yami-kun said:

we decide what happens in our lives before we incarnate, so despite what things might seem you have not "Failed".

Permalink Reply by max on January 2, 2012 at 2:04pm

meditate  and your inner  self will   aligne  to   with  your chakras  , and you will find peace but its   a   every day   struggle   , so meditate  on it  every   day hepls a lot  and you will  feel   the result  .

 

form my heart  to yours   love and inner  peace  , you will find  light  in every  thing   dont matter   how negatif   it is  you will   see  light  and feel   really good  , and like if you were   in touch with an higher  self .

 

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Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 2:22pm

That is so sad Kristina! I am sorry.

Thank you for your reply. I wonder if how we're feeling is connected to mass consciousness. Somehow knowing that we are all together in this is deeply heartening, isn't it? Like we are floating in grief over the old world, and as we reach out and take each other's hands, we create a grid of love, allowing our connection to generate a current of movement for the old to move on and the new to flow in.

I see, in our future, a world full of beautiful, precious parks and thriving happy plants. I want this so much!! In fact, you've inspired me to go start my garden today!! :D Thank you <3

Kristina Muldoon said:

i have been feeling the same way today, more so after seeing one of the few area's i love to go to all be it small it was still really nice, been cut down and dryed up. It was a small little japanese garden in my local park and i don't know why they dryed the small river up so much or why they cut down the bushs but it makes me feel horrible since it was my fav area in this town and i had no clue it was even happening till i seen the results with my own eyes and felt the pain that these poor plants where feeling

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 2:34pm

Thank you, Trillia,

Gosh, it's just good to know you can relate!! I remind myself that the reason this world feels so abusive and exclusive is because I remember how it can be, I remember the total acceptance, beauty, and love and that we are as life eternal, and I would not trade that memory for anything.

Sleeping has been challenging for me too lately, and I know a few others who are feeling it too, maybe there's something collectively going on with that... I take melatonin and at least I feel rested.

Thank you Trillia!

Trillia said:

This could have been written by me. I relate to this very much. I too need advice from those that have experience in this. I remember some of my pasts through dreams. Living in underground colonies on another planet, being a fighter pilot in space etc.... I used to think it was just too much science fiction movies and stories that I have seen or read, but they feel like home to me. I have a great life and am very happy with my family here on Earth but I find myself frequently saying, "I don't belong here." I also feel that time is running out. I don't know what will happen just that I have this urgent need to find my kind. I can't sleep any longer without the aid of sleep medication. I have always had issues with insomnia as long as I can remember , even as a child, however I have been on sleep meds now for an entire year. That is the longest. I think maybe my body is just used to the meds and try to not take them. When I don't take it, I will not sleep. My eyes won't be able to stay open due to extreme tiredness but I will not fall asleep. I do still however have dreams while in that state and I am still aware of everything around me. At times I feel like someone is trying to communicate with me and other times I feel like I was just abandoned here on this planet. Eegads, I could go on and on. Love and Light to you all.

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 2:38pm

Me too!!

I have always felt a sense that I am here to record what is happening - not on a news/world events level - but on an energy level as mass consciousness. 

Thank you for sharing, Jamie, I hope you feel less abandoned with the friends you have found on Starseeds <3 Namaste

Jamie Ling said:

I don't know who I am or what I'm specifically doing. The only minute piece of identity I can consistently rely upon is that of observing and collecting data. It feels like my purpose, but to what end? A sense of abandonment is certainly present.

Permalink Reply by Silverash on January 3, 2012 at 4:51am

Totally with you but trying to take the higher path

love light and blessings

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