Please, Can Anyone Relate?

Helloooo again Lovely Starseed Friends!!

Hurray, we made it to 2012!!!! Congratulations to each of you :)

I normally take a very positive view of my life, and I have no symptomatic reason to complain, but some deep negative feelings have come up on their way to being released, and if anyone can relate it's you. Has anyone else felt this way?

GUILT

did I fail in my mission? I know I came here to be among the populace and influence gently with positive energy - Love, Enthusiasm, Respect, Understanding, etc. but I have found it difficult. this world has not been so friendly towards open-hearted folks, and I have learned to shut down and retreat to my own space most of the time. I feel overwhelmed by guilt that I have failed humanity and been a poor representative.

ANGER

And then I get angry. Angry for the abusive people who pick on happy, vulnerable people. And angry with whoever is targeting us and torturing us with their microwaves. Bullies, grrrrrrr.

LONELINESS

I have never met someone in person who is a Starseed and remembers it. Or remembers any of their other lives. I don't remember much of my contacts with Home and I miss them terribly. At the same time I feel angry with them for what feels like them abandoning me here. I just wish I had some sense of companionship in this. I am not sure I am doing the "right" thing in my life, I'm just doing the best I can.

Anyone feel anything similar?

Or have any advice?

Tags: Homesick, cleansing, emotional, vent

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Permalink Reply by Eish on January 1, 2012 at 5:12pm

we decide what happens in our lives before we incarnate, so despite what things might seem you have not "Failed".

Permalink Reply by Savannah Jackson on January 1, 2012 at 5:41pm

Hi Aliza, you are not alone I have also had feelings where I feel alone and abandoned from Home, but I know, and we know deep down in our hearts they love us and are guiding us to them even though we may not feel it, or think so.

There is an affirmation that  helps during times when I feel angered, or sad that I'm not doing things right:"There is no such thing as failure. I learn from everything I do"

I hope that helps =)

Permalink Reply by NeonKnight on January 1, 2012 at 5:50pm

I know how youre feeling Ive had similar issues in my past ,you arent failing ,I think you are still on the right track ,these negative emotions will pass when you are done with them and you will find a stronger happiness and Love and understanding within yourself very soon I believe.

Dont feel bad anymore Aliza We all Love you.

Rich

 

Permalink Reply by Pat Sunstone on January 2, 2012 at 3:53am

There is a learning experience of what you are feeling! I have found great insight from the life of the Buddha and helped deal with suffering.

Permalink Reply by Michael Doherty on January 2, 2012 at 6:55am

I particularly relate to the Loneliness. But, i have no knowledge, the real deep cause of it in my case. I choose to stay at home, except when i have to venture out.

Permalink Reply by max on January 2, 2012 at 7:07am

yes  i can  ,  you have to  release   your ego  , and all  be fine  make peace  with  your own self within  , and fine  your   balance   within  your consciouness  . peace to you   from my heart to yours   .   

Permalink Reply by max on January 2, 2012 at 8:13am

you  can find   lectures from    manly  p  . hall   on youtube   ,  about    all kinds of topics   concerning   the essence of man   ,  and lot more   his lecture helped me a  lot  . 

 The most important human endeavor is the striving for morality in our actions. Our inner balance, and even our very existence depends on it. Only morality in our actions can give beauty and dignity to our lives."
-- Albert Einstein --

fallow your heart  , as today society  teaches you  that your brain  is main  organ  but its not   your heart  his more energetic  electromagnetly    than  your brain  wish is receptor  , your heart is   emits  emotions  that u have to fallow  if peace with ego is made  .   

Permalink Reply by Kristina Muldoon on January 2, 2012 at 10:27am

i have been feeling the same way today, more so after seeing one of the few area's i love to go to all be it small it was still really nice, been cut down and dryed up. It was a small little japanese garden in my local park and i don't know why they dryed the small river up so much or why they cut down the bushs but it makes me feel horrible since it was my fav area in this town and i had no clue it was even happening till i seen the results with my own eyes and felt the pain that these poor plants where feeling

Permalink Reply by Trillia on January 2, 2012 at 11:33am

This could have been written by me. I relate to this very much. I too need advice from those that have experience in this. I remember some of my pasts through dreams. Living in underground colonies on another planet, being a fighter pilot in space etc.... I used to think it was just too much science fiction movies and stories that I have seen or read, but they feel like home to me. I have a great life and am very happy with my family here on Earth but I find myself frequently saying, "I don't belong here." I also feel that time is running out. I don't know what will happen just that I have this urgent need to find my kind. I can't sleep any longer without the aid of sleep medication. I have always had issues with insomnia as long as I can remember , even as a child, however I have been on sleep meds now for an entire year. That is the longest. I think maybe my body is just used to the meds and try to not take them. When I don't take it, I will not sleep. My eyes won't be able to stay open due to extreme tiredness but I will not fall asleep. I do still however have dreams while in that state and I am still aware of everything around me. At times I feel like someone is trying to communicate with me and other times I feel like I was just abandoned here on this planet. Eegads, I could go on and on. Love and Light to you all.

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:08pm

Thank you, Yami-kun, this is something worth remembering.

It causes me to remember that the important thing is that I am here, and that I AM, just as YOU ARE. Your response has helped me a great deal, so thank You for Being  :)  

Yami-kun said:

we decide what happens in our lives before we incarnate, so despite what things might seem you have not "Failed".

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:13pm

Thank you, Savannah. I reached out like this because feeling alone in this was the worst part. Somehow, just knowing that we are floating in these strange tides together removes the fear and makes way for profound healing. 

And thank you for the reminder that nothing is wasted, because everything is an opportunity for greater understanding. 

Savannah Jackson said:

Hi Aliza, you are not alone I have also had feelings where I feel alone and abandoned from Home, but I know, and we know deep down in our hearts they love us and are guiding us to them even though we may not feel it, or think so.

There is an affirmation that  helps during times when I feel angered, or sad that I'm not doing things right:"There is no such thing as failure. I learn from everything I do"

I hope that helps =)

Permalink Reply by Aliza S Finley on January 2, 2012 at 1:18pm

Thank you, Rich. You are so right on. This process always makes room for greater Love, Joy, and Understanding :) Somehow, hearing that I am Loved is such a comforting gift, so thank you especially for that <3 

NeonKnight said:

I know how youre feeling Ive had similar issues in my past ,you arent failing ,I think you are still on the right track ,these negative emotions will pass when you are done with them and you will find a stronger happiness and Love and understanding within yourself very soon I believe.

Dont feel bad anymore Aliza We all Love you.

Rich

 

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