Hello dear hearts! I am very new to the 'awakening' process. I only recently began feeling deep urges to 'look beyond what I see'.  Until very recently I was simply a vessel of creativity, passion, empathy, yet confused and not really knowing or understanding. After many 'signs' and pointers I believe I may be an incarnated angel though I have no recollections or any idea who my 'family' are. I hope I will find this out soon with the help of you my new friends :)

A bit about me: I was always a very sensitive person and have always had weight issues. I tend to over-eat a lot, and I'm surrounded by 'troubled' people whom I'm constantly trying to help. I am a singer and songwriter and possess what people call an 'angelic voice'. I always felt I am a music messenger meant to uplift and inspire through musical expression and I have ALWAYS been attracted to angels, science fiction, and what people would call the 'fantasy world'. I have had a lifetime of emotional trauma which seemed to climax with the sudden murder of my younger brother through police brutality in September 2005. My father died 3 years later in July 2008 from Diabetes and Heart failure. After recoiling into my shell for a while and dealing with some 'dark times' I suddenly felt the need to be more aware, to learn more, and to be more in tune with the universe. I have always loved the earth and respected her. I make eco-friendly, handmade products like soaps and body products as a hobby which recently turned into a business so that ultimately I am able to fund and support my musical purpose. I am currently married to a high-functioning alcoholic. Recently I began experiencing physical symptoms - digestive problems and severe joint pains. This led me to 'become still' and to start my healing process. I do not medicate myself with man-made medicines but only with natural therapies involving plants, herbs, and organic materials. I am now in the process of detoxification and 'cleansing' my body. This started in February of this year. By June 2012 I had developed a deeper desire to 'soul-search', to learn more and to become 'aware'. I'm always up until late hours reading about the stars, the pleiadians, earlier civilizations, 'light' theories, and lately Angels. The music album I am currently working on is called 'Music Messenger' and I only recently found out that the word 'Angel' also means 'messenger' how cool is that! I am so excited to feel that I am actually about to find a place where I belong and people who understand me. When I was about 19 I think, I had a dream involving an ArchAngel (I believe) who shot an arrow into my foot, accusing me of being stubborn and needing to be 'grounded'.. this was followed by a higher spirit being (of male orientation) who told me how the human race just 'didn't get it'. I am 32 now and have gone through a long period of 'unconsciousness' which seems like it's coming to an end now. I am particularly drawn to the ocean and I resonate well with water and the sea. I was born on a Tuesday and in my country this day is associated with the ocean. Down here on Tuesdays fishermen don't go out to sea as that is the day chosen to respect the Ocean and give her rest. I need to know where I'm from. I've taken the quizzes and fit the description of 'incarnated angel' almost perfectly even down to the health related issues. I have struggled with PCOS and issues with borderline Diabetes. Still I seem to carry certain other traits like my undying love for the arts and performance and my deep connection to earth. I am Taurus. I'm looking for my friends, guides, and helpers. I am attaching a photo of myself (I like this photo even though it was taken on a day when I was very tired :) Please give me pointers that could help me to remember. Namaste.