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How were you awakened???
Hi everyone! Im new here and I thought it would be cool to share my story and hear yours as well.I think for me I was born to awaken. I always looked at things differently than others and was deeply creative and artistic from a very young age. One thing I remember as a constant was dreaming moments of my life in the future. My deja-vu was actually tied to my dreams and once those moments in my life occured I would remember I dreamed about it. My child hood was littered with paranormal experiences voices other than my own intuiton guiding me and constant dreams of flying as well as levitation. It really started happening when the Divinci Code came out. I was raised Catholic and knew very young that it just wasnt what I wanted to believe. When I read the book and started researching things that was when my whole belief system started to really shift. The book Many Lives Many Masters played a big roll in my awakening as well. From there i started to study Wicca and became a solitary practioner for years. It wasnt really until I got into the music business that I was introduced to the whole government thing. I met alot of open minded creative people who dropped alot of knowledge on me. I kept researching though because Wicca still wasnt cutting it for me. I still had a longing almost a nagging feeling inside that there was more I needed to discover. I realized that along with the psychic stuff that I can actually feel peoples feelings and take on the energies of the atmosphere and as I got older the empathy was coming through as my strongest gift. After years more of reading research and meditation I came to terms that i was showing alot of characteristics of a star seed. I also have very rare blood and never get sick. I cannot begin to express the joy I feel to have fianlly discovered this about myself. I finally feel like i may have found my place in this strange place were nothing seems right to me. I know now I have alot of work to do. I have alot of trouble with opening my heart but Im working on it everyday. There is so much more about me I would love to share. I hope to hear your stories as well. I think its a great way to get to know eachother. Also any advice that any of you have for me is welcome.
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Permalink Reply by Joel the observer on -
Hi margie. Liked your story. I remember being very young and always having the intuition that there was more to existence than what this reality showed. I've always had this special feeling inside me, reminding me that I knew things most beings did not know or weren't aware of. I've always been creative in my own way. And the more I age the more past life memories I get. All seem to be quite blurry and out of place but I deeply appriciate them because they feel me up with joy. Sometimes I feel like I hold secrets but starseeds have showed me that I am not the only one with these kind of thoughts and feelings and I'm glad I'm not alone on this. What is most important though is our beautiful mission which is to raise consciousness and assist other beings who unknowingly want guidence and truth. A warm welcome to you. Much LOVE :)
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Permalink Reply by John W Baldwin on -
Yes you are correct that many bearers of light were incarnated based on their tasks/missions or choice?
To incarnate as aware/awaken state, to others comining into their awareness; as so in their "states" of awakening and to those that are "activated"...
I believe it to be 3 stages...unlike the Christ Jesus & others before him, during his time and afterwards as bearers of light here on Earth at the time were fully conscious activated souls to assist humanity in their spiritual development.
For myself I came into awareness once I could facilitate a sense of capacity & coordination of mind & body that starts normally around the age of 2 and is seated by the age of 3...
For the New Children starts by the time they are approx. 1 yrs old lol...
I was aware but not understanding it? and felt my environment was so dense and negative as I can describe that feeling at that age and the thoughts of home came to mind (I wanted to go back home!) - I watched vietnam on tv and most of my world was televised of modern day America of broad spectrum of distractions forms of entertainment and of the worldly news and also the peace/anti-war & civil rights movement.
I was half foot in & half foot out of the spiritual experiences and contact w/ our star family as this did not help me to better understand? and my interest in the field of science and science fiction and metaphysical phenomenon...I've been inherently gifted of art, mechanically inclined as I was building model planes since I was 4 yrs old, difficulty in making friends - spent most time alone even as the oldest of 3 brothers as they all looked up to me and they even copied me to being left handed, to drawing like I did and to help building my models...my mother told me that I took apart a toaster and then the family tv by removing the back panel and taking apart the tubes & other parts and had to call a tv repairman to fix it. My kindergarten teacher Mrs. Casement told me that I was different than other children that I am gifted - she enter my drawing into the May D&F and sponsor; The Colorado National Bank art contest where I won first place nationally that was judged in NYC.
There is so much I can say but most of it is on my profile page & you can look at my art in the photo section pages I think is 7 - 9...I also play music by hear either on piano or my favorite electric keyboard pianos because of the many instruments that is available.
Others sees that I've been blessed - they don't understand the how? or why? For a long time I didn't know either wanting to know why?!?
Since my official "activation" in 2005 through healing from another Lightworker; a fellow federal co-worker & best friend as he told me that "Spirit" told him it was my time...and of my task that I came here was revealed to me in June 2009; many answers came into light since 2005 but some still unanswered & of recent/past events as I have many questions?
I am so glad to have been guided and also reminded through my life by my guides, star family, my experiences, & the works of Edgar Cayce at the same time I was plugged into that system like everyone is and fell into those programs where it was necessary as a Lightworker...I admit I was in the pony show of illusion for good reasons that gave me insightfulness and to find starseeds.net & other networks as this is the great gathering afterall to see to it that the new paradigm for humanity will takes place and to assist in the ascension process not just here on Earth but other transitioning worlds to be of divine service for all.
Thank you so much for bringing this discussion up and for sharing...
Many blessings & God's love unto you & to all
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Permalink Reply by margie martino on
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Thank you so much for sharing your stories with me @ ain I still dont feel "normal" I dont thiink i ever will. I havent had the pleaseure of finding anyone like me in my area yet. Im extremely introverted though. I have a hard time with people because I dont do small talk well and if its a conversation that does not appeal to me I just observe which Im told is ''weird'' So letting new people into my life has been a challenge. @ John I also do everything by ear one of my label mate is a vocal coach and almost fell over after learning Ive never had a lesson in my life. A message just recently came through that I am to use my voice to reach people as I perform frequently and the subject matter of my songs tends to be very deep at times. I always said though that my talents are channeled that they come through and not from me. Im so glad to have met you guys and sometimes human interactions leave me bitter or sad but finding people like myself finally feels really good. one love brothers and siters.
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Permalink Reply by Whitesky on -
I was awakened in one night.
I was very strange in that day, feeling exhausted and out of myself since I woke up. When the night came, I begun feeling extremely spaced out, I could not think clearly and my body was all strange, I could not move it correctly.
Then I begun feeling like my reality was changing, the colors became brighter and more vivid, I could not speak, literally, I could not, it was too difficult and some way illogical.
So I laid down to sleep and as soon as I turned the light off and closed my eyes I begun seeing creatures, alien-like, and fractals everywhere, it was like I was being pulled to another dimension through a universe of fractals, endlessly.
I begun panicking because I did not know what was happening, and at this time I was sweating cold, but my body was too hot like I had a fever. I threw up and got back to bed knowing somehow it would not be a good idea to take any medicine or go to the hospital, it was like a voice was telling me this.
After I judged to be two hours of fractals, another dimensions and a lot of physical symptoms all over the body, I begun feeling very, very sleepy. At this time I was really happy, like my soul was the whole universe and I was feeling everything, somehow I was my whole bedroom, I was endless. I felt a very strong vibration coming out of my eyes, very strong indeed, as if a very vivid and wise Being was behind them.
After that I don't remember anything because I slept a dreamless night and woke up very tired. After this day all the so called ascension/DNA activation symptoms begun happening.
Some days after this night I begun seeing lights in sky, voices talking in my head, geometrical figures, everywhere I walked I'd find feathers (it is said it is an awakening occurrence), I felt my chakras opening spontaneously and it did not stop since. : )
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im really enjoying learning about you guys i hope more people share their stories about a month ago i started sleeping with a huge quartz crystal under my pillow for about a month my dreams were super trippy i started to wake up xtremely tired and became completely exhausted for weeks i gave the crystal a break and have since quit smoking and i only drink on occasion as of late- it was everyday. i feel completely energized lately pretty much just stopped watching tv and listening to the radio i wanna try to start filling that space with more meditaion i feel like everything is starting to really open up inside me and im begining to feel that hadppiness inside i decided i will not talk about the government and spread fear but try my best to just open peoples minds to other things and most of all try to be kinder its hard i live in an inner city full of crime i see and hear about really awful things everyday but being here and talking to guys is helping my light to shine brighter thank you
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Permalink Reply by Cal on -
What a great thread!
For me ...I have felt the same as the others. Feeling somewhat alienated, and having trouble figuring out why some people act the way they do to others.
I also, like John, had a habit of taking things apart... even though i might not have been able to completely put them back together. lol. At age 5.. I took apart an electric kids indy car that I would ride around in.. ..just to figure out how it works.
In my teens I became interested in fantasy related reading..as a side thing to my studies. I had a fascination with books and knowledge. ...and the idea of the arcane ...and wondrous appealed to me very much so. Fantasy related novels spoke to the different in me.. reminded me of something not of here.
Which in turn led me to the question...Is there is such a thing as real magic?... I went to the local library..and remember reading a book one night during a thunderstorm...on Ancient Kabbalistic Magic...and King Solomon. All of the tools..and instruments made from pure elements, the sigils and circles drawn on the floor. I was fascinated and I devoured all sorts of information regarding White, Black, and Grey Magics. This was all going on when I was just getting out of high school about 17-18 years old.I began studying aspects of the The Mystic Kabbalah ....with its Hebrew fire letters.. and began a training regimen for my mind. (Thinking I was training myself to be a great Magician) LOL. Well i began performing certain rituals and daily clearing of my mind around the time I was 19. I think my parents and sisters who were still living at the house thought I was doing some kind of devil worshiping..haha.. because they did not understand it..coming from a very Catholic family.
One night..i had gone to bed..and ended up experiencing strong vibrations coursing through my body. Its scared the hell out of me.. and I didn't know if I was being possessed or what. I was in the basement of my parents house... and it was like 4 in the morning. Needless to say.. I couldnt get back to sleep..because Ive never experienced anything like that before. I had told my mother after she had gotten up...2 hours later.. and she had no idea.
Come to find out...after much study afterwards...it was my astral/etheric body..separating. This happened to me on random nights on and off for the next few years. Ive had times..after the vibrations have "tuned up" ...or raised frequency...that I actually sat up...and looked around..astrally. There's also been times when I have within a blink..have felt myself outside of myself.. or way behind my head...and then quickly dart back in to my perception of my body. the vibrations and lucid dreaming have been with me for a good portion of my life.
But the Grand awakening for me happened during my college years. One day I went out to have a smoke between classes on a sunny day... this still being the time of the beginning of my consciousness studies... and I sat down on a bench outside. I was there for about 2 minutes..when all of a sudden this reality began to descend upon me which was beyond any words I can describe.
It was like nothing in the outside world changed..but I had a greater vision all of a sudden. Everything around me was connected... Everything around me was alive.. the trees..the rocks.. Everything was pulsating life. It was the most profound experience Ive ever had in my life. This frequency of an all encompassing Presence, Sacred and Unconditional in It's Love.. overwhelmed me..that I just wanted to get down on my knees ..and actually had tears running down my face. I just knew it felt like the missing piece..it felt like home. It is hard to even describe it using language. Everything was One... and interconnected. It was like a phase shift in perception. It went on for about 2 minutes.. from what I can guess. ..then i sort of quickly eased back into a normal awareness.
That one moment 17 years ago..has changed my life forever. It has led me to the study..and awakening Ive experienced from then on. I no longer feared death like I did... and realized that everything is perfect..even though it may not seem it to the waking awareness. Even things that I saw that where dead....birds, etc... were in perfect beauty..perfect rhythm with the Creation. It is our awareness that makes us not see it..and the Presence that is underlying everything. All things on a grander level where working in harmony... and that state lasted with me for months and years to come.
From then on til now..I've had experiences on and off but nothing like the Sacred Epiphany I had. I am still learning..and it will always be a continuous process..Leading me to my realization that Star Family (Beings), the Angelic realms, Consciousness, Lightworkers, Indigo's, Sacred rituals and geometry, and everything we talk about on this network...are all pointing the way back to whence we once came.
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Permalink Reply by Tracie C. Williams on -
Wow, that an amazing story and it speaks so close to home for me. This is very inspirational and comforting. You inspire me to stay focused on my mission. It is comforting to know that I am not alone in my experience. I suppose, just like you, I know as a child something was different about me but my empathetic abilities frightened me and I did my best to ignore my abilities. It was my recent reunion with my twin flame that has lead me to the point I am now and back on my mission. I still have much to learn and I am so grateful for places like this to help me along the way. Thanks for sharing!
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Permalink Reply by McKenna Elise Adams on -
I don't really know how I was awakened? I think for me it just happened? Probably, from being very open minded? Or maybe very spiritual? I don't know for sure? :/ *scratches head*
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Permalink Reply by 1dlfbv4cjqku6 on -
I love this thread. School was always misery for me until about highschool. I was one of those kids whom mom sent to school with spandex shorts and a fannie pac lol. That led to allot of being made fun of. When highschool came around I branched out and met some people from a youthgroup and started going to church. I was one of those people who worshiped by putting my hands way in the sky and singing like no tomorrow. After about a year of this I couldnt do it anymore. Being told that I am going to hell because of this or that...That was really scary for me. After being given a rubber ban to put around my wrist and to snap it every time I sinned, I was done with church. After this I went into drunk stage. Drank myself to sleep for about 2 and a half years straight. I would wake up with rage, screaming at GOD why am I going to hell. Literally screaming at the top of my lungs. Back to the bottle. After being made fun of at school as much as I did I started to fight allot. I think after being picked on for so long that anger just took over me. My jaw was always messed up from fighting in highschool. It would click constantly, speaking and eating. Even though I was drinking myself to death every day I still could feel source was with me. So I finally had it and screamed on the top of my lungs at GOD, If I am here for a reason then fix my jaw, and if you dont then I am done. At that point I didnt care about anything and I dont even know what I would of done but I had some really bad ideas on hand. I woke up the next day and my jaw was fixed. That got me thinking. So I started researching information online, things that the church didnt like. Ghosts, alien abductions, the universe, hell, heaven. This all led me to spiritual sites online. I figured why the hell not, signed up for a couple sites that would send me info through my hotmail. After reading so many blogs about spirituality and being sourounded by a loving online family through these sites I was enlightened.
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Permalink Reply by Christopher on -
Thank you for sharing your story, Christopher. It reminded me again that even tho we all have different lives, we are all the same in many ways, not just one :)
Christopher Meyer said:I love this thread. School was always misery for me until about highschool. I was one of those kids whom mom sent to school with spandex shorts and a fannie pac lol. That led to allot of being made fun of. When highschool came around I branched out and met some people from a youthgroup and started going to church. I was one of those people who worshiped by putting my hands way in the sky and singing like no tomorrow. After about a year of this I couldnt do it anymore. Being told that I am going to hell because of this or that...That was really scary for me. After being given a rubber ban to put around my wrist and to snap it every time I sinned, I was done with church. After this I went into drunk stage. Drank myself to sleep for about 2 and a half years straight. I would wake up with rage, screaming at GOD why am I going to hell. Literally screaming at the top of my lungs. Back to the bottle. After being made fun of at school as much as I did I started to fight allot. I think after being picked on for so long that anger just took over me. My jaw was always messed up from fighting in highschool. It would click constantly, speaking and eating. Even though I was drinking myself to death every day I still could feel source was with me. So I finally had it and screamed on the top of my lungs at GOD, If I am here for a reason then fix my jaw, and if you dont then I am done. At that point I didnt care about anything and I dont even know what I would of done but I had some really bad ideas on hand. I woke up the next day and my jaw was fixed. That got me thinking. So I started researching information online, things that the church didnt like. Ghosts, alien abductions, the universe, hell, heaven. This all led me to spiritual sites online. I figured why the hell not, signed up for a couple sites that would send me info through my hotmail. After reading so many blogs about spirituality and being sourounded by a loving online family through these sites I was enlightened.
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Thanx chris I really wasn't sure how people would react to this or even if anyone would reply at all but everyone no matter who or what they are have a story and just by exchanging stories like this really brings people close together and that I know is really important like you I went to church every sunday along with ccd for seven years I was really mad when I started to awaken I was furious not to offend anyone or their faith but I personally felt duped not that I ever truly believed what I was being taught but when I was little I was really affraid I was going to hell it wasn't until I saw a picture of the center of the universe this year that what god was really clicked for me I had such a hard time with wicca and other religions is because for the life of me I could not personify god I always had a voice in me that said religion is science real science space time math that kind of stuff and when that set in everything started to snowball I wish It could all happen to me in one night like others describe but I'm not a super meditator so I'm sure that slows me down some nights I feel like I'm completely tweakin out like there's a glitch in the matrix and there's things dippin in and out of this dimension where I just constantly see stuff out of the corner of my eye and sometimes I hear messages the other night I got one about how telepathy works each day is a new understanding and a little bit more liberating thanks so much for opening up I hope to hear some more of your amazing stories
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Permalink Reply by Spirits_Final_Descent on -
I totally can relate to the normality thing...my whole life I have felt ostracized. This was hard as a child but a known blessing now. It is nice to be linked through technology with like minded souls such as yourself and the rest of this community and I do not wish in the least that I existed with the masses in an unawakened state. I whole-heartedly wish for their unknowingness to dissolve sooner rather than later.
margie martino said:Thank you so much for sharing your stories with me @ ain I still dont feel "normal" I dont thiink i ever will. I havent had the pleaseure of finding anyone like me in my area yet. Im extremely introverted though. I have a hard time with people because I dont do small talk well and if its a conversation that does not appeal to me I just observe which Im told is ''weird'' So letting new people into my life has been a challenge. @ John I also do everything by ear one of my label mate is a vocal coach and almost fell over after learning Ive never had a lesson in my life. A message just recently came through that I am to use my voice to reach people as I perform frequently and the subject matter of my songs tends to be very deep at times. I always said though that my talents are channeled that they come through and not from me. Im so glad to have met you guys and sometimes human interactions leave me bitter or sad but finding people like myself finally feels really good. one love brothers and siters.
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