Intl. Starseed Network
Reuniting Humanity With Their Divinity...It's Time
Hello everyone! An introduction of myself...
So I've finally joined this network! As it happens very often, all of a sudden something feels like a good idea and you just do it. This is what happened here! :)
I always feel like it's incredibly difficult to describe or introduce myself - As if I just ramble and end up forgetting to say what could be interesting, haha! But I also think and feel that others will sense your "energy" regardless.
Anyway, the main reason for me to join was that I've been researching the starseeds "phenomenon" and many related things for years. I have always felt different, at odds with the world. Throughout my entire childhood I have been bullied, a lot of people seemed to have problems with me and I've always found it difficult to make friends. This world, in so many ways, just seems alien to me. I don't understand the hatred, the violence, the polemics...even though I can see why most are caught in those reaction patterns and I don't blame them, it makes me feel very sad. I feel very connected to nature and animals, and the way both are treated in this world makes me so sad. I must indeed be very sensitive and empathetic. I feel a lot of pain. This world seems like an incredibly harsh environment full of heavy energies.
One of the main things that has always made me feel different is that I feel completely agendered and sexless. It is very difficult to explain to most people, but basically living in a world with two sexes, female and male, feels completely "wrong" to me. As well as gender roles and everything that goes with. As a result, I also feel quite asexual. To me, male and female just absolutely don't exist, not on a physical level or any other. I was born in a female body, and it feels very wrong to me, but having a male body wouldn't feel right either. I have a deep feeling of wanting to live in a place where there are no sexes and, if there even are physical bodies, reproduction happens in a different way. There could be a form of sexuality, but it would be very different from the one in this world. I have always felt like this.
In all the time I have researched starseeds, I have never come across anything that describes this. Anyone who feels the same or similar, or maybe has some info?
All that said, I have always felt some sort of "urge" - Some reason to be here, a mission to accomplish. I cannot yet couch into terms what exactly it might be, there's just this feeling deep within me...
What I do know is that I always long for development and a deeper understanding of everything.
A few things about my physical appearance:
I have small, almond-shaped eyes (See avatar!). Their colour seems to change, somewhere between green, blue and grey. Sometimes they're almost light grey-ish blue, other times a dark teal.
I have very small hands, feet and ears in relation to the rest of my body.
My skin is incredibly sensitive and reacts to everything, have been diagnosed with a variety of skin diseases (among them psoriasis), but in the end no one seems to know what's going on with my skin.
I have always gained weight easily and I'm always hungry - I often feel like the food I get doesn't give me what I need, as if its energy level or vibration is too low. So I eat more, hoping it'll help, but of course it doesn't. Anyone experience something like this?
The lines in my left palm are extremely strange - Simply put, my head line runs directly into my heart line and is cut off from the rest of the head line further down.
I often experience neck pain, get many infections and have difficulties sleeping. The energies in this world just feel so heavy...
Oh dear, I wanted to write a short intro and now look what I've done! I hope you haven't already fallen asleep, facedown on the keyboard! :D
I think I wrote this much about myself because I really felt I needed to say all this, for once, and hope to maybe finally find a bit of understanding. And I hope that at least some of you enjoyed reading it and maybe have some thoughts, feelings, ideas, info etc. you could tell me about.
And please, tell me about yourselves, too! I am incredibly curious, really want to hear your stories! :)
Finally I send lots of love to all of you! You are all wonderful beings, never forget that!
Namasté! <3
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Permalink Reply by CrystalDreamer59 on -
Hi I can actually somewhat relate to you. Like you I have always felt different and the world seems strange to me. I'm just finding out that deep down I actually don't like violence and hatred that much and kind of don't understand how people can be so mean. I too like nature and even feel a slight connection to nature. I fear that global warming can't be stopped and I desperately feel this need to heal the earth somehow. I also feel a little asexual even though I do find some boys attractive (by the way I'm obviously a girl too) I don't have much sexual desire. I too don't like gender roles and I'm a bit of a tomboy (though I like some girly stuff as well). I don't feel as though I was born the wrong gender.
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Permalink Reply by Noctilucent on -
Hi CrystalDreamer59! Thanks for your response!
I'm happy you can somewhat relate to what I describe. Seems like particularly on the gender/sex issue you're not as 'extreme' as me, I've actually experienced quite a few people describing similar fellings as you do. But never really any who seem to feel the way I do.
I'm happy you don't see the world as black/white as many people seem to.
I hope you're having a lovely day! :)
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Permalink Reply by CrystalDreamer59 on
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Thank you. It's so nice to meet you too. I'm going to add you as a friend.
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Permalink Reply by Daniel on -
Hello and welcome :)
Im daniel, i didnt get this world neither, but i am really happy to be here now :)
i just find myself arriving and accepting this world, the people, the love, the beauty.
I find myself on a wondrous journey that seems just to begin, so im starting into a completely new adventure, having real interest in humanity, in relation and intimacy, in opening my heart to this species, to partnership which i didnt ever experience in my life, as i always was retreated to somewhere inside me even while i was happy and fun communicating sometimes even entertaining :)
So far to me :)
I dont know much information about all the races, but i read that the arcturians, who are very far progressed beings are even androgynous when they are in form.
But there are more beings like that probably but i dont know.
I hope you like it here
it was a pleasure to read your introduction
thank you :)
Greetings
and goodbye
i hope you have a lovely day as well <3
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Permalink Reply by Joel the observer on -
I don't want to speak for everyone but I think most of us have felt or still feel strange in this planet and disgusted by all the wrong in this world. My experiences on earth have made me stronger and more understanding. I know now how to live my life. Here in this planet it can be difficult but its also enjoyable at times for me now that I gained knowledge, wisdom and understanding. Clarity is beautiful. Welcome to the family!
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Permalink Reply by Joel the observer on
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Oh and the one thing we all for sure have in common is that we are all here starseed/ awakened beings but we have our lovely, unique differences too. Like our origins, symptoms, memories, etc. We all advance differently. As long as we are advancing is what matters most when the awakening happens. Lots of love to you all!
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Permalink Reply by Noctilucent on
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Thanks everyone for your replies! :D
I agree with what you say, even though it's difficult to be here, you learn from it. It's part of your development. All the horrendous things I've experienced have made me ache, but they've also made me wiser and stronger.
And at the same time, through our presence, we can all in our ways help others understand and develop/advance. It's important to remember you're here for a reason. As well as it's important to see beauty and goodness when it's around you, whether it's in the physical world or otherwise, even though it is being destroyed and repressed very often and in many places.
How about your origins, do any of you have any interesting tales to tell about where you're from in the universe or where else than Earth you have been incarnated? I'd be delighted to read them!
As for me, I sense that I have lived on Earth many times before, but also on other planets. Do any of you sense anything as to where else I might've lived? I think to know some things about this, but am not sure, so I'd be curious to read what you think/feel before I write anything about it myself...When life on Earth gets tough, and you feel hopeless and depressed (in case that ever happens to you), what do you do to regain your inner faith, peace, strength and love?
How do you dream at night? I don't really dream about aliens much (at least I can't really remember it), but have many lucid dreams and prophetic dreams, as well as many déjà vu-experiences while awake. My dreams are often very intense and trigger strong feelings which sometimes set the mood for the entire following day. A recurring thing I dream is that I meet people who have passed away and I talk to them, those dreams are usually very pleasant.Much love to all of you! :)
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